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Saturday, September 30, 2006

today woke up at 9.. decided to study hard for bio because it may act as my truning point and enable me to get promoted.. haiish.. reallie no choice le lorrhs.. i studied all the way from 9 to 2 plus and i finally finished protein synthesis and cell signalling.. ahhs. feel a sense of relief lorrhs.. but dunno why hors, i have a feeling that the chapters that i've studied for at the front i all forget liaos.. lols. haiish. tmr revise lorrhs..

but my mum just told me that we will going out tmr.. go offer prayers to my grandfather and then they going toa payoh.. haiish.. maybe i just go for the prayers and then come back after that lorrhs.. yups.. and also hors, thinking that i have to study geog after the bio paper reallie makes me feel like fainting.. haiish.. reallie a lot lorrhs.. i dun even have the time to read the extra notes that mrs koh print for us.. ARRGGGGHHHHHHHHH~

but, i tell myself that if i put this up for a few more days, i can play all i want after promos. yeahs. my motivation. =) heex.. moreover, i today in gd mood.. cos tmr is our 8th month anniversary! yay! 8 mths liaos wors.. sho happie.. hope that we will have endless more months ahead of us kayys dearriie? must keep the faith.. =) muackks muackks.. love yeuu ALWAYS dearriie.. my heart will onli belong to yeuu..

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 11:12 PM

Friday, September 29, 2006

haiish.. today was my maths and chemistry paper.. maths was okayys.. i was pretty happy with the way the paper turned out.. but as for chem.. haiish.. i reallie dunno wad to say.. its reallie difficult like hell.. haiish.. i was crying during the paper larrhs.. and i dunno left how many blanks.. feel so so depressed.. haiish. sadd arrhs. wahhs lau. dunno why things turned out the way they did.. okayys, i admit for mid yr i didnt study hard enough, but now?! i've already studied hard le.. haiish.. dunno why still like this.. michelle and ji xuan tried to comfort me, but i still felt sadd. haiish.. but thks for trying to cheer me up guys. =)

because of this, i msged dearrie right after my paper and asked him to come meet me and pei me awhile lorrhs. and he did, which is so sweet of him.. when i met him, i just poured out my sorrows and he just sat there and lent me a listening ear.. that is enough for me already.. he just sat there and comfort me lorrhs.. and ask me to do better in bio.. haiish.. he asked me to cry all out lorrhs, say that i will feel better after that.. and i reallie felt better.. thks dear.. and then after i've just calmed down a little, his mother called him, and after he put the phone down, there was a look of worry in his eyes when he told me that he thinks his mum know that he wasnt at hgp.. haiish.. so worried about him larrhs.. i msged him to ask him to msg me as soon as he is okayys.. but there is no msg until now.. so damn worried.. also quite upset with myself for getting him into trouble.. haiish~~~

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 9:38 PM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

today woke up at 8.. lols.. i planned to wake up at 9 de, but then i was awakened by my bro's cries and then i couldnt get back to slp liaos. lols. maybe was waiting for someone's msg bahhs. lols.

yeahs, then i woke up i jiu go study awhile and then i did hsework.. and then i studied somemore until about 10.30.. then i went online and saw dearriie.. talked to him awhile then he offline liaos.. i then looked for chinese songs lorrhs. so sianz..

at 1.30 i go changed and get ready to go to national skin center with my sis lorrhs. i first time didnt tie my hair when i go out lerx. heex.. cos ytd just cut my hair, then now its thin le marrhs. heex..

when we reached the national skin center, we didnt wait long b4 we got to see the doctor.. she was so cute larrhs.. and friendly too.. heex. my sister had her first treatment done today.. lols.. she say very pain, so i lend her my hand to squeeze lorrhs.. but she didnt use force.. i think she nvr eat arhs, so no strength. LOLS. as for me, today is my last treatment!! yay. so happie. heex. finally i recovered from warts.. =)

after treatment, my sis and i went toa payoh walk walk.. heex. not much to walk anyways. lol. but i bought a monokuro boo handphone accessory.. SOOOOOOO CUTE larrhs.. omg.. love it so much. lols.

the whole day i was thinking of dearriie as i dunno when will be the next time that i can meet him.. haiish. his first msg to me today was telling me how shagged he was and that he was having a headache.. haiish.. feel so heartpain.. haiish. it is no wonder that he will have headaches often given the stress that he is under.. poor dear..

on the bus journey home, i was thinking bout how he was doing larrhs.. then suddenly he called me, and i knew he was out of the hse... he was going to have dinner and asked me whether i wanna meet him.. and coincidentally, the bus was near hgp at tt time.. wahhs. suddenly feel so happy and energised.. and also can see how he was feeling, so i agreed to meet him at hgp lorrhs.. he then bought mac and ate on the way to my hse.. he's so sweet larrhs, feel so ill already still wanna send me home.. haii.. thks dear..

upon reaching my blk, we went to our 'usual' place to talk lorrhs.. *wiinkks* spent some time there.. at first, he reallie seemed drained.. then after awhile, he was looking better already.. then when he was going home that time, he told me that his headache was gone.. i was relieved and happy for him..haiish.. cos i also dun wan see him suffer so much.. haiish.. sick le still take time off to come find me.. haiish.. dear.. i feel reallie lucky to have u.. i was touched.. haiish.. i love yeuu dear.. so much so much...

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 10:37 PM

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

awww... today was the long awaited day when i will go out with dearriie.. when i woke up this morning, it was 8.. lols. then i jiu study awhile then jiu change into my new quiksilver shirt.. heex.. then after not long, dearriie jiu outside my house liaos.. we then headed towards the 88 bus stop and went to punggol park..

at there, we indulged in our private world of two.. i also folded the straw heart for him there.. lols.. =) at 11.45 we jiu take bus go hougang mall liaos.. we went there and eat lunch - kfc! and then we jiu went walk walk.. finally found my WHITE hairband le worrs.. so happy.. =) dearriie bought for me de lerx.. heex. thank yeuu dearriie. =)

after that we went to take mrt to his sch liaos.. actually i was planning on taking the train all the way to jurong east after he alight at dover de, but then dearriie suggested that i get off with him and then take a bus home at a bus stop outside his sch.. i agreed lorrhs.. he told me where to take the bus and then jiu kissed me goodbye le. *aww..sho sweet larrhs* heex..

wahhs. then all that happened later was so stoopid larrhs. omg, feel so stupid. lols. when i was at the bus stop, i saw that bus nuber 147 was also available.. then i dunno whether can take or not lerx.. then i also lazy to call dear to ask.. then when 147 came, i boarded the bus lorrhs.. then that time i felt a bit strange already, because there were so many ppl at the bus stop but not one of them boarded the bus with me.. i boarded the bus and then i realised that the bus will be going to clementi interchange.. i was like DIAOS. haiish. feel so stupid. hahas.

that's not all larrhs, wahhs lau. then when the bus reached the interchange(which was a BUS STOP), i didnt know tt was the end lorrhs. i thought the bus would turn into the interchange lerx.. then i was sitting there happily listening to my mp3. . then the bus captain asked me to get off.. omg. then i was like so paiseh larrhs.. i quickly rushed off the bus larrhs..diaox.

then i jiu walk towards the interchange and took 165 home. lols.. stoopid rights. diaos. so stupid tt i feel like crying lerx.. haiish. then on the bus i saw miss tang and mrs magdeline tan.. i didnt call them cos i scared that they wun recognize me. lols.. haiish.. wad a stupid day lorrhs. ZzZzZz....

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 5:50 PM

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

mmm. dunno wad to say lerx... like nothing else to talk about except my hectic schedule. lols. i cant wait for promos to be over larrhs! omg. i wanna do lotsa things after promos... shopping, iceskating.. all of which i dun have time to even THINK about now. ARGH.

hahas. today dearriie woke up and told me about his dream.. he dreamed that both of us got married. lols. weird, but its a nice dream.. and i hope this dream can come true wors. lols. =)

my parents and my auntie whu worked in hospice are very worried about dear.. haiish~ they say he very ke lian lorrhs, have to handle this situation at this young age.. ask me to give him support lorrhs... haiish.. but i see him like that so stressed up i also heartpain fer him.. haiish. but the prob is i heartpain i also cannot do anything! that's the worst thing larrhs.. omg, feel so helpless.. plus now i promos period, dun reallie have time to pei him and give him my FULL support.. haiish. guess i'll have to do that after the promos... but but... after promos have to prepare PW de stuff.. i also dunno..

jc life is really draining.. i study so hard, i also dunno whether i can be promoted.. the teachers have been emphasizing that the promo paper will be tough. haii. i dunno wad i will do if i reallie retained.. haiish. dun tok about it le.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 11:01 PM

Sunday, September 17, 2006

promos are coming. reallie reallie stressed.. well, who isnt anyways? lols. at first, there seemed to be hope that i can finish studying in time. but now, haiish, dunno why. the future just seem so bleak. dunno why just have the feeling that i will be retained. haiish. we shall see. meanwhile i just have to hang on lorrhs, although i'm like already three quarters dead. lols.

dearriie's father had been discharged from the hospital and is now resting at home.. mmmm.. but dear have to wake up early every morinig to feed his dad his medicine.. poor dear.. haiish, i know he is under a lot of stress.. but to my delight, he still take the time to msg and call me whenever he can.. i'm very happy dear.. i know u are doing this because u are scared that i might feel neglected now that u have to takkaire of ur dad and cant spend so much time with me.. i know dear.. =) *muackkiies* thks dear, i'm touched. lols. but dun wry about me larrhs kayys? spend more time with ur family..

mr poh is leaving us soon.. 29th sept, which is the day of our maths paper is his last day.. although we dun have any close connections, but haiish, losing someone is always difficult.. dun u agree? i wish him all the best in his business bahhs.

wahhs, i'm so shagged, think i'll stop here le.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 1:12 AM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

long time nvr blog liaos.. been very busy studying for promos.. omg. its like killing me larrhs.. so tired everyday..

ytd, deariie's father was admitted to ttsh.. he didnt know wad was wrong until 8 plus when he msged me. haiish.. it seems very serious, and it is serious i think.. haiish. feel so sadd for him.. he msged me tt time, although he got put smiley faces in his smses, i could tell that he was reallie very very sadd.. haiish. i just told him to be strong lorrhs.. coz i reallie dunno wad to say to him le.. haiish.. feel like a useless gf now.. i just hope tt he takes good care of himself for the moment lorrhs. coZ i also busy studying for promos, then also no time to take care of him for the time being. so yeahs, dearriie, just takkaire of urself yarrhs?

and rmb, i'l always be here fer u.. be strong dear. =) *muackkies*

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 12:44 AM

Friday, September 08, 2006

yays... i'm back from hong kong! reallie missed a lot of ppl over there.. heex.. well.. the temperature there is like singapore.. i think a bit hotter.. wahhs. reallie cannot stand the heat sia.. heez..

well.. i cant possibly write about the whole trip in my blog, or else i will bore a lot of ppl to death, so i shall just briefly describe wad we did each day.. heex..

on the first day, that is when we just reached there, it was 7.30 at night liaox.. we took a bus to the hotel to put our baggages and then we went for dinner.. after that jiu go back to the hotel to unpack out things and look forward to a nice stay at hong kong!

second day we went shopping along the various well-known streets where they sell cheap but gd stuff.. wahhs. i reallie had a shopping spree there lorrhs.. woohoo~ then at night we went up to a place called 'the peak' where you can see the whole of hong kong's skylines! its like heavenly lorrhs.. while you are up there, the clouds just swift past you.. wahhhs. heavenly. romantic too. lols.

on the third day, we went disneyland!! the things they sell there all very ex, but nice!! all disney characters de.. we also went to the various rides in the park itself and took pictures too! the fireworks display was spectacular! dunno why, makes me feel as if i'm in some kinda fantasyland. lols. =)

on the fourth day, we went to a place where there was a BIG statue of buddha.. i forgot the name of the place le.. lols. but it was nice.. the scenery around that place was nice too.. after that, we jiu went shopping liaos, but this time went air con de place to shop.. yups..

on the last day in hong kong, we went harbourcity, the largest shopping centre in hong kong.. we did some last minute shopping and then we headed to the airport.. we went into the departure area with one last look of the airport.. and then we waited a while jiu board the plane liaos..

it reallie feels so good to be back in singapore! ahhs. but so sadd, i thought i could meet dearriie today but he is working. so haiish. next monday lorrhs.

anyways, wad i have said here is only very very brief. for more details, can call or meet up with me lorrhs. then i will tell u all bout it. lols.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 10:46 AM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

woohoo~ i'll be going to hong kong later! hahas. so excited! heez.. yeahs. so i probably cant blog for like 5 days. lols. i'm gonna miss a lot of ppl while i'm there.. meanwhile, frens, pls takkaire while i'm there! and dearriie, u too. i am going to miss all of u....

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 7:46 AM

Saturday, September 02, 2006

mmm. i had vowed to give dear more freedom since ytd. i know i am probably going to suffer from missing him too much.. but haiish~ there is reallie nth i can do to make him happie le.. haiish~ i'm changing myself fer him lerx.. am i right in doing this? i thought when a person loves someone, he or she is supposed to love him for whu he or she is, not wad he or she is. haiish~ dunno larrhs.

when gals say smth, most of the time they dun mean it de. haiish~ gals, u would know wad i mean. but sometimes guys just dun understand tt... sometimes i reallie wish guys could detect wad we reallie mean. haiish~ dunno how to say larrhs.

i'm going to hong kong le.. dunno if he will miss me as much as i miss him...............

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 12:10 AM