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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

today i went to sch for OP de rehearsal.. during the rehearsal, dearriie called me and said he was at the hougang mrt station there.. then he told me he felt like meeting me and wanted to pon sch... i was happy but also worried for him at the same time. his tests were coming and i wanted to make sure that he could catch up with his work if he were to pon sch.. after i was reassured, i allowed him to come find me in sch..

he come alr then our meeting jiu end le.. lols. then we took 156 home and alighted at hs there and walked home.. when we reached home, i helped him change his friendster skin and then we adjourned to my room lorrhs.. yups. then my mum say she wanted to go out and eat, so i asked him along since he was not meeting any of his frens fer dinner.. he went to the 8th floor to wait for mum to come home lorrhs..

when mum came home, he called to say that one of his frens just called him and told him it was another friend's birthday.. from his tone, i could tell that he wanted to go have dinner with them more than he wants to have dinner with me.. i jiu asked him go lorrhs.. but i was abit disappointed.. pushing my own feelings aside, i urged him to go with his frens.. and we had quite a huge row over this.. now still not over yet. haiish~

because of the quarrel, i cried and i fell asleep.. my mum, seeing me like tt, also just left me alone and they went for dinner without me.. i slept all the way to 8 and when i was awake, they were just coming home.. my sis saw how sad i was and asked me to brace up lorrhs.. then she cheered me up by saying they bought sushi for me as my dinner.. i was also very touched.. she bought a box of brown dye and i just finished helping her to dye her hair.. lols.. but dunno why like dun have colour like tt.. maybe the dye too dark liaos.. lols.

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`simplyloveyou- 9:28 PM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

today i woke up at 11. lols, very tired lehhs, dunno why.. heex.. i quickly do the hsework and then waited for my mum to come home to bring me buy my pokemon crystal version. lols.

in the end, my mum say she very tired and dun feel like going.. so i just went with my sis lorrhs.. then they also nvr sell.. say wad very long ago liaos.. haiish. sianz lorrhs.. then i just walked out of that building and dunno headed where.. gt road jiu walk.. in the end, we ended up at cross street.. dunno where is that also. hahas. we were like lost larrhs. hahas. we then decided to walk on.. and finally we reached lau pa sat. LOLS. can walk until so far sia. heex.

we went there have a drink and then carried on walking to raffles place mrt station.. we then took to dhoby ghaut to change to NEL and then headed on to chinatown again. hahas. cause i havee decided to buy the game. fun marrhs. haiish. in the end bought le, but dunno why still craving for crystal version... wait until i can find it first bahhs. haiish~

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`simplyloveyou- 8:37 PM

Friday, October 27, 2006

today is mrs koh's birthday!! lols. i wished her happie birthday this morning.. yups.. heex..

after doing the hsework, my sister and i headed to heartland mall/hougang mall/compass point. lols.. we today planned to go so many places because each of the things that we wanna buy are all in these different places.. zzz.. yeahs.

so firstly, we went to heartland.. my sister wanna go the this fashion there buy her shorts.. but end up didnt buy.. dunno why she dun wan buy also.. lols.. then we headed on to hougang mall.. i wanna go the game shop there to buy a gameboy de game.. old game liaos.. there got sell, but its second hand de.. i dun like.. and its EX too.. so dun buy lorrhs.. with that, we went on to compass point to buy SOMEONE de birthday present. yups.. my sister gave me advice and then i finally decided on which one to buy lorrhs.. yups.. the salesgirl there very friendly. =)

after buying, i called dearriie to ask him where he was, and if he was near, hopefully he could collect the present from me then.. but he was at his fren's hse and he was about to go hougang mall with his mother soon.. mmm.. so i left it at that lorrhs.. we agreed to meet on monday.. yups. my sister and i jiu went home and decided to check out the game shop at my mother's workplace to see if they sell the game that i want lorrhs.. but they didnt. ='( we jiu waited for my mother to knock off and went home together..

my auntie then treated us to dinner at borsche steakhouse at the serangoon garden there.. the service there was like shit larrhs. wahhhs lau.. the salmon was so damn oily also.. actually thought of bringing dearriie there for dinner on his birthday, but forget it, although the ambience is nice.. after dinner, we went home with our stomachs full.

dearriie is playing game now.. mmm.. that kinda game that needs full concentration.. FULL CONCENTRATION until he will forget about his gf those kind. haiish. he said dun disturb him. then i jiu dun lorrhs.

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`simplyloveyou- 11:31 PM

Monday, October 23, 2006

i believe too much in love. i depend too much on him. so how? i reallie dunno. i'm so confused. i wish to cry myself to slp. i sacrifice so much, but this is only called depending too much on him. someone, ANYONE, help me. help me to be me again.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 11:48 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

woo hoo~~~~ today i was so high today larrhs. dunno fer wad also. lols. the teacher said that there was a compulsory workshop for all the J1 tmr. lols. i cant go. lols.

today i woke up late. at 6.30. lols. i was so tired larrhs. and then i was sure i didnt hear the alarm from my hp. lols. ji xuan had to call my hse and my father had to wake me up. lols. luckily we were not late. feel so guilty larrhs. i was always the one who drag her down. lols. sorry arhs, gal. =)

today actually wanna pon geog one, but michelle seemed very unhappy.. she always unhappy when she know we wanna pon one. lols. yeahs, so in the end we went for geog lorrhs. it turned out not badd larrhs. lols. then tmr also very dumb larrhs, got chem for 1.5 hrs then jiu no more lesson liaos.. but sianz, we will be having PW meeting.. i alr told benjamin that i need to go off lorrhs. yups..

hahas. oh yeahs, another one of my shoelace kena confiscated by miss choong again. haiish~ so damn suay larrhs.. ji xuan, lee tian and i were already walking out of the school already.. then suay suay have to meet the science teachers.. first i saw bernard lee.. then after that i saw gary neo and i instinctively know miss choong will be with them.. so i just turned aroung and tried to adjust my shoelace as i knew it was sticking out like dunno wad like tt. lols. but alas, as a bio teacher, she has keen observation skills. lols. she looked very stern and walked towards me and then asked me to give it to her lorrhs. and said it was the last time she was telling me. i was like so paiseh larrhs. wahhs lau. hahas. next time see her must be more careful already. lols.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 8:41 PM

Monday, October 16, 2006

sad sad sad. i got my results today. all of them. haiish. some are okayys, but most are disappointing.. especially my bio... ARGH. the essay part was like shit. upon 20 guess i got how much? i got 0. simply a big FAT 0! haiish~ so damn depressed. i wrote like shit larrhs. i tried. i reali reali tried. i dunno larrhs, when i saw that stupid page, i just stared at it and the tears started coming out right there in the hall. i tried to stop it, but it wouldnt, WTH.

haiishh.. i'm starting to feel that bio is not my cup of tea. haiish. but honestly, i love bio. its the scoring part that is hard. now damn worried whether i will be promoted larrhs. haiish~ me and jixuan wandered around compass after receiving the results.. both of us didnt feel like going home... haiish~ SAD larrhs. i miss him badly. i need him by my side... haiish~

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 11:10 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

i have learnt that the most important thing in a relationship is understanding. okayys, maybe it is not the most important thing, but it is definitely an essential. especially when your half is experiencing a down side of his life.

ytd, he told me he read my blog and he msged me when i was at the wedding dinner and he sounded very upset. i was like so worried that he will ignore me for like weeks larrhs. i was frantically sending him msges, but to my dismay, he didnt reply one of them. when i called him on the phone later that night, he didnt ans also. haiish~ was damn worried.

this morning i awoke to the msg tone of my phone..it was him, and he explained that he dozed off.. i was like so relieved larrhs.. haiish~ gave me such a big scare. now we're alrights liaos, thank goodness. =)

tmr we'll be getting our promo results - all of them. makes me a bit jittery.. haiish~ whether i will be promoted or not will depend on these results. quite scary when i come to think of it...

-imissyeuu.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 8:13 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

i didnt slp well last night. haiish~ i was thinking whether he was alrights. he didnt msg me good nites... its the second time alr.. haiish.. was he too busy looking after his dad? but how long does typing a msg need? 1 hr? haiish~ he told me he cannot pei me that often, does it include msg time too? is a girlfriend supposed to always forgive her boyfriend for this kinda things?

he doesnt msg me that often already.. haiish~ guess he's reallie busy with this father? but when he goes to school he also doesnt msg me. haiish. is he loving me less? i also dunno larrhs. think i too sensitive or wad bahhs.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 9:48 AM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

today do pw and chi again.. sianz. lols. wahhs, someONE in our class made me damn pissed today larrhs. F*CK man. i was sitting at her grp's PW table talking to ji xuan they all.. we having our break marrhs.. then when zi hsuan asked her to put down the laptop or smth like that, she say until very loud "wait larrhs! u see got space or not?!" and then looked over at us. WTF larrhs. not happy just say into my face lorrhs, nonid go one BIG round de lorrhs. HUMJI is it? KI student somemore. f*ck u larrhs. i listened alr i very buei song alr lorrhs, i just stand up and stomped away lorrhs. fine lorrhs, u wan the table, GIVE U BACK lorrhs.

after the last lesson, which is PW, ji xuan and i jiu went home le lorrhs. going home tt time she looked very sadd lers. i think its me arhs. coz she wanted to go compass.. then i going out with my family and have to reach home early marrhs, so i told her cannot go compass liaos.. then i think she sadd lorrhs. haiish. sorry gal, will make it up to you next time kayys? cheer up.

i napped for awhile upon reaching home.. and then i woke up at 4.15 to dress up nice nice to go out.. heex. my dad, bro and i jiu took the bus to amk where we will be watching rob-b-hood. when we reached there, we had our dinner and walked ard before going into the cinema.. its like damn small larrhs.. i still prefer GV.. heex. even the popcorn there also taste a bit weird. lols. the show was 2 h and 20 min larrhs.. nice show man. got funny, got crying parts one. damn nice!

we went home straight after the movie and we took 159 home.. when i was about to get on the bus, i saw two NYJCians alighting from another bus. one kept turning around to look at me, like he wanna say smth like tt.. then while walking away from the bus stop, he still kept turning ard.. he even asked his fren to turn ard.. i was like, bewildered larrhs. diaos. like got smth to say then dun wanna say tt kinda feeling. lols.

anyways, the bus was like damn crowded larrhs. my god. my father board the bus in front of me, and he tapped his card nearer to the bus driver.. i was on the other side of the bus but i decided to tap my card against the reader nearer to the bus driver as it was available. and then i saw him. he was wearing a pair of red-framed specs. i was so stunned that i hesitated for a moment and then we looked at each other.. lols. he seemed to recognise me, but he also seemed not to recognise me. i dunno wad he thinking when he gives that 'DAO' face larhs. aiyoh. then my father and i had to stand on the bus and he was driving so fast larrhs. wth. lols. finally reached home le. tired. now still got PW meeting for OP but benjamin is nowhere in sight. LOLs~

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 10:22 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

part of me wants to be upset with him and nvr tok to him again. part of me says that i should be understanding at this point in time when he's so stressed up with everything. after thinking it thru, i feel that i shld listen to the understanding part of me. and so i will. i'll be understanding and not blame him for anything small he does wrong. i'll tell myself that i'm too sensitive...

my cousin says that i depend too much on him. like i will die without him. well, that is partly true, because i have to admit that my life has nvr been the same since we're together. but still, my cousin says that we should live life happily and enjoy ourselves. and, according to jasmine, we shld talk out problems and solve them instead of leaving them hanging in the air.. she's absolutely right.. we're a couple, and we shld talk about our problems instead of avoiding it.. furthermore, there's nth under the sun that we cant talk about, rights dearriie?

anyyways, sch starts again today.. ytd i slpt at 2.30 after CHIONGing the WR.. yeahs. then today i woke up late and had to go up that stupid crowded bus and i forgot to bring the project file. diaos. but luckily benjamin didnt scold me. *phewww* lols. today in sch do only PW and chinese nia.. so boring. then still gt proncipal's talk somemore.. slpt a bit during that talk. so boring larrhs. lols.

after sch, ji xuan and i went to compass to have kfc.. dunno why suddenly feel like eating kfc so much.. lols. while i was on 156 to compass, a 159 passed by at the opposite stretch of road.. then i just casually look at the driver to see whu it was. and guess wad, i saw HIM! i saw the long lost bus driver!! lols. hahas. long time no see him, ji xuan and i thought he got fired. lols. so badd rights. hahas. then at the kfc, the staff there were training new and young ppl whu were taking our orders. v funny larrhs. then got one handsome guy work in the kitchen lorrhs. diaos larrhs. dunno why today see so many shuai guys... lols. but there is one thing i like to clarify, and that is, ultimately, i still love my cute little boy. =)

after that, ji xuan and i went to the library to borrow books lorrhs.. coz very sians marrhs. found 2 nice books to occupy myself with.. =) after that jiu go home liaos. i just woke up after a nap.. but dunno why still v tired. haiish. later still got PW meeting online..

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 7:19 PM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

today i woke up at 7 because chris nvr tell me wad time to meet. i was waiting and waiting for his msg in the morning but he nvr msged.. so i called hiim lorrhs.. he didnt ans when i called him at 8 plus.. he onli picked up my call at 9 plus when he just got out of the house. he said everytime meet me on tue is always 9.. how i know siiaxx. haiish~

we took the train to esplanade and then we sat at a secluded area behind a door.. and then the funny thing was we got caught and was chased out.. lols. we jiu went the seats there to sit and talk before going over to marina square to have our lunch - kfc. wahhs, the kfc there very nice.. next time got chance then go there eat again. after eating we jiu have to rush to his sch coz he was alr late for his lesson and he has presentation today..

after sending him to sch, i took the train to woodlands to meet jasmine.. she was late. hahahas. she still look the same larrhs, still so thin and pretty. =) we then walked the pasar malam outside causeway point and then we went inside and walked one round lorrhs. wad a boring shopping centre.. not much to see also. lols. we then went mos burger to have some drinks while we talked our hearts out there.. haiish~

she then asked me to msg chris to see if he was having dinner with me lorrhs.. then he said no lorrhs.. after that i jiu went home alone on that damn crowded 161 and left jasmine there to wait for melvin whu will be meeting her to talk..

on the bus, i msged chris to ask him where he will be having his dinner as i thought of joining him and his frens. but he didnt reply larhs. haiish~ i walked all the way home alone while waiting for his msg.. when i reached home, i bathed. i thought. i cried. and i ached. haiish~

when he finally did reply, he said he just received my msg as he was on the train when i msged him.. he said he going to have his dinner at ave 8 and then need to go home le. like tt lorrhs. haiish. nvm larrhs. i also dunno wad to say. i'll just remain silent..

-heartache.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 6:52 PM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

woohoo~ i finally changed my friendster skin! hahas.. actually i was reluctant to change the skin de, coz my previous skin was reallie reallie nice and sweet.. i was browsing thru the new skins today when i suddenly spotted the perfect skin! omg.. its black and pink.. heavenly.. i changed the skin to that lorrhs.. so proud of it. lols.

basically, i was using the com for the whole day today.. lols. nth to do marrhs.. after chatting with dearrie online for a while, i then went to have my afternoon nap at 2 and i was woken up by my bro who said that we were going out.. my mum said we going vivocity, which is the new shopping centre that has opened at harbourfront there.

when we reached there, we were greeted by a large crowd. reallie LARGE.. dunno why got so many ppl sia.. diaos.. then most of the shops that young ppl would like are still not open.. the fast food outlets also.. when we want to find a place to eat because of my stupid bro who was complaining, all the outlets that we wanted to visit were still closed. then my mum was like blaming me for asking her to go to a place where there was difficulty even in finding a place to eat. wtf larrhs, how i know. diaos lorrhs. then i think she saw my hurt face and then she started to talk to me to make me feel better lorrhs.. haiish.

in the end we walked all the way back to harbourfront centre lorrhs.. my bro wanna eat the ice cream there marrhs... so ma fan larrhs he.. think he is the king or smth like tt... grr.. when we reached macdonalds, the place was like packed lorrhs.. dun even have a place to stand larrhs.. wahhs lau.. sibei suay man.. in the end he have to eat ice cream from a high class ice cream parlour and one scoop of ice cream is like $3.80 larrhs. so damn ex. then ppl there also udnno how to queue up de lorrhs.. got one guy and his mum only know how to EAT lorrhs. bang ppl also dunno how to say SORRY de larrhs. my sis and i were like SOOOOOOO pissed larrhs. f*ck.

we then went to pastamania to eat.. the queue was like so damn long larrhs. sians lorrhs. i think we queued for like 20 mins larrhs.. the ppl there also work very slow.. take their own swt time.. ZzZzZz.. then got one gal who was dressed in PINK all the way.. from top to bottom larrhs.. she was sitting beside our table with her family.. at first i thought she was the man's wife larrhs.. wahhs lau.. i think she is sec 1.. at most sec 2 nia larrhs.. wear until like AUNTIE like tt.. my sis and i cant stand her.. see alr also feel like PUKING. URF.

on my way home, dearrie told me that he couldnt meet me tmr liaos.. coz my pw ends at 2.30 like tt marrhs. haiish. sianz lorrhs. i miss him. i miss dearriie.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 11:02 PM

Friday, October 06, 2006

ytd dearriie didnt msg me gd nite and i was like waiting and waiting for his msg.. i thought something happened to him.. like his mother confiscated his hp or smth.. then dunno why this morning just automatically wake up and then called him to see if he was okayys lorrhs.. he is fine, just that ytd he was too tired to msg me lorrhs. *phewww*

then just now when i call him that time he said he going to buy medicine at hougang mall and then asked if i wanna meet him.. of course i wan larrhs.. would i give up any opportunity to meet him? lols. then after the phone call, he asked me to go back to slp, but dunno why, i jiu shi cant sleep lorrhs.. so i woke up and then used the com lorrhs..

at 10.30, i left my hse for heartland mall coz suddenly i feel like going shopping alone marrhs.. dunno why lers, i feel very strange also, because usually i wun go out alone de.. but today just feel like lorrhs.. so i took 112 to heartland and then there nth one.. cos most of the shops haven open. then i was like siao gal like tt walk ard that mall for like 50 times b4 i finally decided to take 112 to hougang mall... i purposely took the bus to drag the time because i realised there were reallie a lot of time as dearriie will onli be dismissed at 12..

at hougang mall, i went chameleon to buy my hairpin and then i gt nth to do liaos.. reallie very sianz.. so i went into practically every shop there.. sianx larrhs.. and then i think i walked hougang mall 100 times while waiting for his call.. but he didnt call so i called him lorrhs.. then he said that he go with his frens to buy the medicine can liaos. ask me go home first. i was like. dunno how to say also. lols. then he asked me to wait for him larrhs.. at first i was okayys with it, but thinking of the fact that i have to spend another 1 hr alone.. haiish.. dunno.. i just dun like the feeling of being alone.. its so scary. and lonely. haiish..

i decided not to wait for him in the end and i just msged to tell him that lorrhs. i then took 112 home deliberately.. the long bus journey home gave me time to think about wad i wanted to ponder about lorrhs.. haiish. dunno larrhs. sians.

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 2:43 PM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

finally! after so many days of struggling with my studying for promos, tmr is the last paper, BIO MCQ! yayys! so happy.. lols. then finally can go out and shop until i drop liaos. LOLS. i just pray that benjamin wun want to meet everyday during the hols from the marking day and all. *pray hard* Lols.

i miss dearriie.. baby here miss dearriie.. haiish..

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 5:29 PM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

If there were no words, no way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears, no way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you
And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my valentine

All of my life I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes and shown me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams i couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
Cause all I need is you, my valentine
You're all I need, my love, my valentine

* \\ because [[YEUU]] live; my worrld has TWIICE as many *~starrs~* iin the sky // *
`simplyloveyou- 11:36 AM