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Thursday, March 08, 2007

today was chem spa.. i thought i had studied for it.. but apparently, i wasnt ready for it.. and i think i these few days study til very late and lack of slp.. and i think i read the protocol wrongly larrhs.. haiish. ask me use dilute H2SO4 i go use conc H2SO4. zzz.. haiish. i still checked two times and in the end i still got it wrong. haiish. and when i heard jixuan said that they used conc HCl, i was like "HUHHS, GOT USE HCl MEHHS?" haiish. die liaos lorrhs. gone le. haiish. i couldnt contain myself and i broke down right after the spa. after all, this is not JUST A TEST but the a lvls. HAIISH~ but i was glad, because during this midst of breaking down, i realised that i have great friends ard me whu reallie cared.. it reallie touched me.. special thanks to michelle lau, sakina and of course my group of frens - jixuan, leetian and xiuqin for showing me their concern although this is not the first time that i break down le. thks so much!

if the spa is not enough a blow to me, my sister called and told me that Ruby had died. haiish. i was like, haiish. double blow to me. haiish. i then went straight home after buying some things for my angel.. haiish. then i saw, where the cage was, was an empty spot. haiish. and my sister, father and anutie went to bury her downstairs. Ruby most probably died because of old age, but i still feel like such a failure. so useless. when Ruby was alive, i didnt reallie give all my attention and love to her.. i feel so guilty.. she was so unlucky to have been bought by me in the first place.. haiish. maybe if she had been bought by another person, she maybe could have enjoyed her life.. but with me, she had suffered. so much. i am sorry Ruby. i am so sorry. below are some pictures for me to keep my memories with her...

in loving memory.

ii am sry. so sry. ='(

you'll always be my Ruby.

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i'm so tired from all the crying today.. i think i'm going slp le. haiish~ sadd day...

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